“For those of you playing Borderlands 2, you may have noticed an NPC standing around Sanctuary named Michael Mamaril. It’s already rare to have an NPC be have a name (and a last name at that), and if you take a few seconds to talk to him, he’s a fellow Vault Hunter who is more than happy to share his rare loot, many times blue- or purple-level rarity. He’s so charitable that he’s in my tips guide and that I spend a minute looking for him every time I return to Sanctuary.
Apparently, that was the point.
Michael Mamaril is based off a real person, whom Gearbox Software decided to pay tribute to (hence, the “Tribute to a Vault Hunter” Achievement/Trophy). A Destructoid fan named Carlo wrote an email into Gearbox Software about his friend, Michael John Mamaril, who passed away from cancer at 22. Michael was a huge fan of Borderlands and Carlo thought that he would be cool for Claptrap to read a eulogy
Gearbox obviously went one step further, going well beyond the call of duty. Michael Mamaril will now be immortalized in the Borderlands universe.
Awesome job, Gearbox! My hat is off to you”
…but when I do, I seem to be really good at fucking with my own head and heart. Rewriting those “what if” moments can be a pretty awful thing when the reality of the situation comes back into focus. Sometimes it’s shitty experiences from my 9-5 (no doubt stress induced) but the last one decided to reference anxiety which I don’t think I have such a good handle on. I can shrug off anger and annoyance fairly quickly, mostly because I find it tiresome and it ultimately achieves nothing. Anxiety on the other hand tends to bubble and gurgle for hours. It creeps up and mumbles half thoughts hoping to snag shards of attention with baited juicy alternatives.
Anyway in an effort to put this out of my mind I thought I would attempt to put it into words and then instead dwell on the the fact that I hate writing this shit. It began as a facebook post but I knew I would end up deleting it and I doubt many people I know personally pay much attention to this site so I’ll just let it sit here.